Men... You are strange creatures! Nervous? Charmed by something magical?
NervousI have recently discovered that I can get nervous or am just too much tuned in empathy that it affects me as a person, emotionally. I am not sure what happened, usually I don't get nervous while I talk to someone new but this person made me nervous! I was excited and looked forward to meeting him. So we met, we had a great time together! Still... Why was I nervous? Perhaps it is the thought of dating that makes me wonder: "What am I doing?! Are you freaking insane?! Doing this again! Argh... I so hate dating!"
Meeting a person is a whole other story, than a "date". There is no expectation of anything, you just have a conversation and it just flows. A start of a great friendship or just nice to have made your acquaintance. Except this guy, I didn't expect anything for the first date. I was just open-minded of who I might meet in person. Luckily, he was exactly the person who I was talking to, cute, lovely, nice, fun. Not a gentleman, but a man of few words. He was refreshing, still interesting but why do I still feel uneasy about it? And above all the uneasiness was already there before I met him. I was glad to discover that he was nervous too and that he had to recover from the evening as well. Am I nervous because he is on the same wavelength with me or am I just feeling something else? And what is the uneasiness?
No, I am not talking about illusions and magic tricks. I am talking about the gentleman charms and the way of talking which makes a woman say things casually without feeling that they are saying something weird or inappropriate. I get annoyed, when someone can talk in such a manner which makes me say things that I don't want to. Certain actors are good at doing that, which makes the other actors flow with them instead of influencing the story with their own acting talent. It is as if the great actor says something that triggers your natural instinct to say things which sound natural at the time and place. Except you were triggered to respond that way as if it is natural but it wasn't.
It is something to be a charming man and a gentleman, but it is something else to stir a conversation in a way that will give you a great outcome. A form of manipulation which might have been done unintentionally or purposely which will make certain people annoyed. But so far I have survived a certain gentleman's charm. And somehow fighting against the charms is quite challenging. So I am secretly liking the change and I know it is harmless so no one will get hurt.
I have no idea what will happen, when one day he finds out that he can charm any lady he wants. Will he become an evil genius or will he use it wisely and find the lady for him alone? I can't wait to see that happen and hopefully he is the latter. Would be a shame, if he becomes a complete asshole.