I just watched a movie called Paper Heart. The first few minutes shows a girl holding a microphone, who is trying to talk to people about love. She was ignored at first, but later people started talking to her. It was interesting to see, what people have to say. The girl, Charlyne Yi, turns out to be the presenter of the documentary about love. You might know Charlyne Yi from the series House M.D., she plays Dr. Chi Park. And her friend in the story or also person who asks her questions during the documentary is Jake M. Johnson, strangely enough he is called Nicholas Jasenovec unlike most of the people who use their own names in the documentary.
A few minutes later, Charlyne tells people she has never been in love before and that she doesn’t believe in love. She talks to various people about love. Scientists, people she meets in different cities in America and also a few actors for instance Michael Cera. Michael likes her and they even go out, but she didn’t like him at first.
My favourite quote
Charlyne: “The other night I had this dream and ehm I was on stage and the spotlight hit me when I looked down I was wearing this beautiful pink dress and ehm my hair was all blond and curly (Jake laughs) I tried to do magic and perform a song but it didn’t work it was like, it was like I lost my zing.”
Jake with a laugh: “Do you think it’s ‘cause you are with Mike (referring to Michael Cera) that you are afraid that you are becoming all girly and stuff?”
Charlyne: “I don’t know, I have never been one of the girls, you know?”
Charlyne: “I want to be his girlfriend but I don’t want to be ‘the’ girlfriend. I mean no one remembers ‘the’ girlfriend.
Jake: “Sure, you want to be one of the dudes.”
Charlyne: “I don’t want the dudes!”
This quote reminded me of the song from Katy Perry – One of the boys. She sings about being a girl, but who doesn’t want to be one of the boys.
I am a girl, who doesn’t act like a ‘girly’ girl or at least not like ‘normal’ girls. Love shopping, apply make-up, wear a dress or a skirt… Not that I have never worn a dress, skirt or mascara before. I do paint my nails occasionally… It is just, I feel different when I wear a dress, skirt or high heels… Even letting my long hair down makes me feel different… I guess I haven’t met a guy yet, who has looked at me without making me feel uncomfortable *sticks out tongue with smile on face*.
Feelings of love
I haven’t been in love before just like Charlyne, but I do believe love exists. Perhaps I believe too much in the happy love-soppy stories out there? Lovely couples, who grow with one another. Leave the world with each other. People who move in sync with one another even without saying a word. But I have seen couples, where the man doesn’t say a lot but his actions makes up for everything.
There are quite a few views in the documentary that are similar to my view of love. Be together with a person, who makes you feel comfortable, where you can be yourself completely, who you can talk to, argue with, be angry, sad or whatever emotion with and have an attraction which lies beneath the words “I miss you”… Staying together through the ups and downs in life.
Love? Will I find it or will it find me?
That sounds like a disease doesn’t it? A virus that reels you in cell by cell until it is too late and you suddenly feel it… The warm fever-like warmth, a blush on your cheeks and your lips start to shiver a little. You get chills over your back and goose bumps over your arm… Then you bring up the courage to say something that might change your entire life or just ruin it for a long period of time *teehee*. A blushing feverish: “I love you!”