Alright, who started with the idea that hugging is normal? I don’t mind being hugged, but long with a certain amount of strength and being so close to a guy that you can’t run or push away? Or shouldn’t because it is kind of rude…
I have slightly gotten used to the hugging, because of one of my friends… When we see each other it is “Hi” *hug* and when we go home “Bye” *hug*. The first few times he did that, I unwillingly let him hug me at the hi’s. Hey, he is just helping me cope with it… But the first few times on bye it was a dash from me out of the door yelling “Bye”. This failed the next few times when he was better prepared. Him being on flag football has its perks on blocking, I guess. I think I’m ok with the hugging now.
The same friend has done a lot of weightlifting these couple of years and what did he do yesterday?! Why did he do that?! He just lifted me up from the floor… He was carrying me! *Cry* It was so terrifying! Why did he do that? Why? And later he did the same thing again!
Stupid phobia and slightly fear of heights… When I’m on an unstable floor, which is super high I will have the heights problem. You might think, that one fear can cancel out the other fear but that is not the case at all! It makes one worry even more. How did Monk cope with all the fears he had? It is amazing, that he could even talk with people.
My line of today: Innocent hugs… Innocent weightlifting… Innocent… Innocent… Innocence?