Tsundere, what does it mean? It’s a person who is initially cold and even hostile towards another person before gradually showing their warm side over time. Unfortunately, I’m such a person. I guess mostly because I look cold, when I don’t smile. But what does it mean, when I smile or laugh? Do I attract people, who I usually wouldn’t smile at? What if I want to smile at people, who I don’t really want to be cold towards to?
So I have seen a certain person’s beautiful eyes, seen him with a stubble beard (why do I find those neat stubble beards sexy?!) and I have seen him wear suits, but today his suit was the most gorgeous one of them all (that sounded like magic mirror, which suit is the fairest of them all?). It was a dark suit with very thin greyish/black/white lines, you could hardly see the stripes which makes it gorgeous and the pocket on the front is cute... The worst part of it all is, the gorgeous suit made him look like a total hotty! He has worn the weird dark blue suit, darkish olive green suit and a few shirts, but none made him look as good as he did today.
I guess men in suits are hotties… Awww… If only more men wore suits casually (suit and jeans) instead of formally (complete suit and matching pants) there wouldn’t be any single guys… Ok, so not true but the idea is fun because that means women will wear more dresses, skirts and I wouldn’t feel awkward when I wear one and people stare at me. Because I’d feel that they are actually staring at the other women, which I usually think anyway… Brush the staring away, because why would someone ever stare at me? I must have done something weird again *teehee*.
Staring… If only I knew what was going through his mind each time his lips move like an s-shape or tend to smile but in the end shows a surprised expression… I’m at a loss of what to do, asking directly would be rude or might make it all even more awkward. I thought we have finally passed the awkwardness, but we haven’t… All I think after each encounter is: “IDIOT!… Stop being so cute…!”