When you talk to someone more than just with hi you start to know someone. The department, where I have my internship is filled with social people. I enjoy the people very much, but some contacts make you wonder... There is a certain person at the department, who can't talk to me normally. Everything that comes out of his mouth is either a puzzle or it is a comment that comes out of the blue. The latter occurred twice and I was talking to his colleague, who sits next to him in their shared office room. I am glad, that I wasn't the only one replied with "What are you talking about?". If his colleague didn't give a similar reaction I might have thought that I was being paranoid, which so often happens when I'm around men I don't know.
This situation reminded me of, what I did during primary school. A girl in my class told me, that a certain boy likes me and her boyfriend told me the same thing. As daring as I was I walked up to the certain boy and asked him straight without even saying hi, if it was true that he likes me. The boy reacted nothing as I expected, replying with a definite loud perhaps embarrassing no! He walked away and scolded his best friend.
I have been thinking about asking the certain person at the department if he likes me or not. Only I'm an adult now and I should watch out on, what I say and do. Except over thinking it can be bad or amusing. I have thought of scenarios: the one of my past, a scene from an anime called Working and another dreadful scenario.
Scenario from the anime Working (click on the image to go to the next image):
Summary: Girl asks guy if he likes her and the guy becomes scary to her point of view, but in reality he is so embarrassed that he can't be himself any more for the rest of the day.
The dreadful scenario, that I want to avoid is that there will be a romantic ending of sorts. A declaration of love and a question of "Go out with me?!" Totally going to run from that one! Obviously, that would be in my mind but seriously I might freeze up or worse case scenario which I have never done before in reality is... (click on the image to go to the next image)
Summary: Yes! Punch a guy (who I don't know) for coming way too close! Unlike Inami-chan, I have androphobia for whole other reasons than just being shy and I don't show it externally ^^" Also I don't have the fear as long as men aren't extra friendly towards me or when I'm being dense about them liking me ^^ Yeah... I am now avoiding any unnecessary contact with the certain person of the department.
There you go, my first androphobia story any thing you all want to add? *glances at Windy* Uhuh, I am looking at you. I am sure you want to add something ^^"
>> Next post will be about my first thought, when I first arrived at the department compared to now: "Awww cute! Avoid... avoid... avoid... Cute!!!"
Oh yes, youth and boys, long long long time ago ><
ReplyDeleteI wish all the time I learned better from that time, but still.
Don't get to worked up over it. Just try and enjoy your internship...
Oh and the last line, for the next post... lmao XD