A lot has happened these few weeks... My head is completely filled with emotions that I have to deal with happy, angry, sadness, frustrations... My mum fell, her knee is still not ok so she is recovering/resting at home. Me, myself and I is starting to feel comfortable in a certain situation, but to be honest I am not dealing with the emotions in a healthy way.
My brain usually shuts down certain parts of emotion during work, but when you worry and also have a lovey-dovey feeling it stires into a huge distraction and even numbs your brain. The blocking mechanism has broken! The index archive of my brain is not easily accessible due to the intense emotions. Recalling names was already a problem for me, but now it is worse! Thank God, I still recognize people! I hope my mum gets well soon and I hope my mind creates a new path for me to access the archive or lets me access it period!
I don't think I can go back to who I was a few months ago. I have been spoiled on certain aspects of my life and I don't want to let it go. Do you think the whirlwind of emotions have made me selfish or am I finally doing something for me for a change?