I am waiting for a certain someone to surprise me more, to show that he cares and shows empathie. But sharing something about himself is something he isn't good at and showing empathie? That is just something impossible? I was patient about it for two months, but I discovered a new feeling four weeks ago... Impatience!
Patience versus impatience! A fight that luckily only happens when I think of a certain learning curve in caring for a certain person. Other than that I am patient. I am taking steps towards my future.
But I feel tired most of the time. Almost had a burnout last week, luckily I caught it in time and stopped the whole process by forcing myself to go out last weekend. I needed positive stress, more time to relax and to sleep! Lack of sleep is something that happens so easily when you stress. You get a certain adrenaline rush, which keeps you awake and focused. Oh and another one flawed thing about it is not feeling hungry! So lack of sleep and lack of food means "zombie vlieny" and an irritation times ten. Which means the bar for tolerance became low.
Oh well, need to accept this feeling of being impatient and stress less during my personal life. Than I will be back to my old happy self.
I saw this quote this week and thought: "This is suitable".
"You don't have to cheat to lose your girl or your wife. You can lose her from a lack communication, attention and disrespect. It's not all about what you do, sometimes it's about what you don't do."